The Battlefield Where the Girls Say I Love You



That's just the thing: we will never tell you we love you. In fact, we're here only to hold hands across state lines and yell at the world. We're here to try to touch you across this chasm of flown things. Not even that. At most, I will teach you how to make a gin smoothie when there's nothing left in the house. Hannah can teach you several languages and what to do when your car breaks up with you. Thanks for coming out.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

and just like that, they're leaving.

when the kids came, my father used the word 'permanent' which i, at least, interpreted to be a year. aaron and kan, however, took him at his word, so when an email came from my dad, out of the clear blue, saying the kids were going back, the bottom dropped out of our world. and they're going... to him. or their mother. or him. well, they're really not sure. but the kids are going somewhere. when? in december sometime. the truth is that neither parent has exhibited stellar child-rearing skills, and that this is the latest move in a chess match between two people who are using the kids as pawns while v. heatedly disputing joint possessions. all pretty revolting.

there's really no way to make this funny. they're sad and scared, and i'm thinking i'd rather have kids dumped on me by the truckload rather than give them up. overall though, they're handling it with the kind of courage and gallantry and humor that i could never muster. but it's totally typical of them, and why they're just so much cooler than most adults i know. waiting for the school bus this morning, i tell the other parents about it, and they say, Oh, how exciting! kan tugs frantically on my jacket, says: Tell us a joke, please Hannah, so we can laugh or else it will be a sad moment.

bah. clearly, the only thing left is to do christmas like crazy before they go: ornaments! cookies! ice skating!! reindeer costumes for the cat!!!!

11 comments:

Unknown said...

Sorry to hear that Hannah. I love reading about your everyday adventures with the little ones. I think you have done a fine job looking after them. Not a lot of people would be able to do what you have done. I hope everything works out for you and them.

daisy said...

OMG. I think my heart just broke a little bit. And I don't even like children.

mendacious said...

ditto what daisy said.

is it wrong of me to think you should fight to keep them though there is no precedent besides deep parental dysfunction?

Anonymous said...

oh, honey. i'm so sorry. and i agree with the previous comment: you're an amazing person for kan and aaron to have. anyone can see that.

JaySlacks said...

I've hung out with them only once and its amazing how quickly the bond forms. My favorite moment.

Aaron: Why is he doing that?

Me: Cause he's weird.

Kan: You wear braclets!

Aaron: (looks at me funny)

Me: What time did Hannah say she was coming home.

I'll miss them.

hannah said...

thanks, guys. trying to focus on their pain-in-the-ass moments, like when they paint the dining room table a la pollock. but it's no use; they're the best kids ever. except, in my head, i'm not just saying that, i'm roaring it like a beast all day long now: BEST!! KIDS!! EVER!! and then i look fiercely at the cashier who has no idea what i'm bellowing in my head and just thinks i am stupid.

hat said...

Just think of the fun you'll be able to send them in the mail and over the phone, and soon, very soon, over email -- it's sad to have them leave, but it'll be even more fun to find creative ways of sustaining and growing the bond you have already established. Send them reindeers and elves in the mail! Cupcakes via USPS (yuck)! M&Ms inscribed w/ their names for birthday presents! Marshmallow blaster guns (that'll give one of their parents unmitigated joy, surely)! Oh, the possibilities...

Anonymous said...

Oh, Hannah. This is heartbreaking. I'm so sorry that they're leaving. I'm so sorry. Can you send wine and Camels via UPS?

Cue said...

Oh, man... am crushed on your behalf. :(

hannah said...

there's a special rate on shipping emmers this holiday season. i want one-a-dems.

thanks, andrea :)

Jessica said...

And just when you were beginning to write "the other parents" unself-consciously.

i'm so sorry. you've been amazing with them. you'll be missed.